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Cara Delevingne talks about her depression

The model and actress also spoke about her suicidal thoughts, her mother's heroin addiction and her relationship with St Vincent

By Verinia Khoo | Published: 22 Jun 2015

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Cara Delevingne's kooky cool personality has made her not just a model of the moment, but a social media star (just look at her Instagram). But the Paper Towns actress has revealed that it hasn't always been rainbows and butterflies for her. In a new interview, Cara confesses that she had severe mental health issues as a teenager.

"This is something I haven’t been open about, but it's a huge part of who I am," she said. "All of a sudden I was hit with a massive wave of depression and anxiety and self-hatred, where the feelings were so painful that I would slam my head against a tree to try to knock myself out. I never cut, but I'd scratch myself to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialize and have someone sweep me away."

Cara also admitted coming close to suicide once in New York, when she was caught in an "unshakable insomnia". She said, "I was packing my bags, and suddenly I just wanted to end it. I had a way, and it was right there in front of me. And I was like, I need to decide whether I love myself as much as I love the idea of death."

Cara also discussed her mother's heroin addiction. "My mother's an amazingly strong person with a huge heart, and I adore her. But it's not something you get better from, I don't think. I know there are people who have stopped and are fine now, but not in my circumstance. She's still struggling."

But the 22-year-old is in a happier place now and she says it's all thanks to girlfriend Annie Clark, aka St Vincent. "I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I'm feeling so happy with who I am these days. And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle," said Cara.


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