Adele admits that she suffered from postpartum depression
"I felt very inadequate; I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life"
We love Adele for always, always keeping it real with her fans. Now, we love her even more for being brave enough to open up about her postpartum depression, which she suffered after giving birth to her son Angelo in 2012.
"I think it's the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurised into having kids, because that's what adults do," Adele told Vanity Fair. "I love my son more than anything, but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the f-ck I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that."
Adele's experience with postpartum depression is also part of the reason she's afraid to have another child. She also said that she did not take antidepressants to help treat her depression.
"I didn't talk to anyone about it. I was very reluctant," she said. "My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said 'F-ck that, I ain't hanging around with a f-ckin' bunch of mothers'. Then, without realising it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they're a bit more patient. You'll be talking to someone, but you're not really listening, because you're so f-ckin' tired."
Studies show that postpartum or postnatal depression affects more than one in 10 women after giving birth. Symptoms include guilt and low self-esteem, which can make the mother not want to take care of her newborn child. For Adele, the guilt drove her the other way, so that she had no time for herself.
"I was obsessed with my child," she said. "I felt very inadequate; I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life... It can come in many different forms. Eventually I just said, I'm going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f-ck I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, 'Really? Don't you feel bad?' I said, I do, but not as bad as I'd feel if I didn't do it."
At the end of the day, Adele's love for Angelo is what keeps her going.
"I'm enjoying touring, but at times I feel guilty because I'm doing this massive tour, and even though my son is with me all the time, on certain nights I can't put him to bed. I never feel guilty when I'm not working. You're constantly trying to make up for stuff when you're a mum. I don't mind, because of the love I feel for him... I don't care if I don't ever get to do anything for myself again."